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Current mood:	confused
Current music:	'Killer Queen' by Queen
Entry tags:	advice, friends, sex

Sex with Friends is Oblivious

Before I write this journal entry, let me make one thing perfectly clear; the names have been changed to respect the right of my friends, but the events are true.

Sex with strangers is a fun thing to do. 
You go out to the bar, pick up a guy or girl, take them home and have fun; no strings attatched.
Sex with good friends is a very weird thing.
Friday night I went to the bar with my roommate and ex, J.C and my friends Lisa, Greg and Ashley.
Things were great, I have been drinking since three thirty PM that day because Lisa brought sambucca to my house after I got off work and proceeded to get me plastered with it.
At the bar, I danced alot and met up with this guy I wanted to sleep with for a while; Jamie.
Jamie and me sat and talked on the sofas in the bar, while Lisa sat on my lap and Greg disappeared.
Now, Ashley and Greg are engaged and have been together for a while, but they fight like cat and dog.
At least once a week she is sitting on my squishy chair crying and it's always the same story.
"I don't know what to do Squish, he's always doing this to me!"
Don't worry, he's not a cheater or anything, he's just super insensitive.
Ashley can't even suggest they do something other than what he wants or he freaks out and tells her he's leaving.
Well, back to the point.
Ashley came and sat down, a grim look on her face.
She waved two fingers in front of her face, indicating she wanted to go outside and have a smoke, so Lisa hopped off my lap and we three girls went outside.
As I lit my cigarette, Ashley blurted that Greg had suggested a threesome to her and wanted me to be the third.
I almost dropped my smoke.
She told me that she really didn't want to have one, but Greg flipped out when she told him no.
Lisa is very affectionate, so she unwrapped an arm from around me and put it around Ashley.
I told her that under no circumstances would that ever happen wih the three of us, and that he's just being a guy.
This made her smile enough to go back inside and dance with Lisa and me.
As the night wound down, everyone but Greg was ready to go, and when we looked for him, we knew why.
A bar ho was sucking on his neck.
Ashley flipped and we didn't blame her.
We all left the bar to go to 7 11 cause Lisa was hungry.
After she had gotten something to eat, Lisa brushed all out suggestions to walk her home off and we left.
The morning after the night before, I stumble out of bed, realize I did sleep with Jamie and go into the living room.
Greg was standing there grinning at me.
"Lisa was pissed off at you." He says. "I think it's becuase you ditched her for a guy."
"She ditched us." I said. "She didn't want any of us to walk home."
Well, later tha day when I went home, my roommate bitched me out.
Apparently it's clear to everyone but me that Lisa has a thing for me and was pissed because I took a guy home and not her.
He went on to tell me that she was serious when she suggested showering together the day before, and that the kisses that she always gave me, she meant.
Fuck, even GREG could tell, but I always brushed him off when he told us to 'go dyke out' elsewhere.
I just thought Lisa was affectionate, not into me.
Well, hopefully I can fix this thing before it gets to hard to fix because I really, really like her too.

Help and suggestions of hos I should breach this subject with her without loosing her would be appreciated.

Squish x